Also it is hard to concentrate

when you can't hold down a glass of water. Man alive! I hate all this anxiety crap. Stress is way easier when you allow it to break you, when you fall adrift and go on benders with booze, alienating your friends and acting like a tit. When you try and hold everything together, you pretty much succeed, but you feel ill as a bastard ill person, and eating and looking after yourself kind of go out of the window. Looking after everyone and everything else, I can do that, but me, not so much.